The last post of 2010

Okey people... Officially the last post of this year. I am on my way to meet friends to begin the new year celebrations (I still don't have a clear idea about what we are doing this evening). This year I am grateful for blackberry for this mobility of blogging from a metro rail :-). Also I am grateful to god for giving me the crappiest hardships this year because if it isn't for those I would have not known my strengths. Thanks to my family and my friends for being an excellent support system. This year I only hope to be a better person. And one humble request: please give warm milk or warm blankets to the under privileged people on the streets especially old people and puppies. And most importanly LOVE YOURSELF PEOPLE.For its only then that you can love anybody else. Mwahhhxxx
See you in 2011 ;-)
Love
Me :)
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Planner pictures!

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The resolutions business.

So here it is my list of new year 2011 resolutions. I am big enough to now follow them seriously so I really hope I am able to do it this time. I am not going to put stupid resolutions like weight loss , quit drinking etc because I am going to deal with bigger agendas.
So here it goes:

1. Temper Control: My biggest problem in life. I will work on my temper this year and I will control it to the maximum. I have to be a better person from within to be able to do that. So I hope to work hard on it and achieve it. 
2. Be a more private person. This one is also very important since I am usually very open about what I feel about things and people which mostly lands me in trouble. I need to be very conscious with my words and also I need to keep my emotions in check . I need to listen more and talk less. 
3. Pray. I really need to pray and meditate this year to be able to achieve both of the above resolutions. 

Thats it. These are my three simple to look at yet difficult to achieve resolutions for this year. 

I hope we are all able to stick to our resolutions. 

Love 

Me :) 

This one is for my Mum! xx (A very small note)

At 23 (turning 24) you have very little to say about your parents whilst a lot to say about your friends. I want to take a moment and write some things about my mother whom I very dearly love. Although in my adolescence much like a lot of people around the globe I never used to get along with her as much as I should have,  but now when I am in my twenties I can totally relate to her and I totally get along with her (touchwood) She is a very understanding mother. Actually not just an understanding mother but in general an understanding person, I think it stems from the fact that she is a Doctor and she needs to counsel a lot of people but whatever it is, I am so very lucky to have her as my mother. Sharing everything from the daily depressions (he he ) to boyfriend woes I can talk to her about everything. She gives me advice that is not only practical but also sane with reference to my age group. Of course she has her motherly wisdom to impart as well :) but mostly she gives me advice as a peer and I genuinely seek her advice more than I seek advice from my friends.
We both have similar values as far as major things in life are concerned which is also why I think I relate to her in so many ways. If only I can get her calibre in terms of investment and money matters I think I will be really sorted in life.
I love you Mum! TOTALLY MADLY DEEPLY
(And I dont need mother's day to say this)
Love
Me :)

Yay a New Year is coming!!!

I am so happy a new year is coming. 2011. I think it is going to be my year. (I know I have said it enough times) Finally the feeling is setting in because its Monday today and this Saturday it will be a new year. OMG I have never been so excited about any year as much as I am about 2011. I look forward to my 24th birthday. This year for me is the do or die year. I have to make that house dream possible, I have to put a foundation stone for my career in public relations. A big touchwood. Big fingers crossed.
So finally I have brought a 2011 diary. It is a really pretty multicoloured patterned diary which I picked up from Staples just this afternoon. And I have already started filling it up with birthdays, anniversaries and things I need to do next week. It has a page for a day system which will make it very easy for me to maintain my daily to-do lists and personal notes. The fact that it is a very pretty diary makes me happy. Also it is not a kind of a diary that you can get bored looking at. I will post a picture soon.I am too lazy right now.
Also I am going to be posting soon about my new year resolutions and certain pledges that I take for this year and so on. I hope you are looking forward to the year as much as I am.

Love
Me :)

New Year Dilemma

My new year plans are haywire. What to do? Initial plan was that I will go to Himachal with Mr.Big and now my mother has thrown a googly. She says that if I go to Himachal, then I will have to stay with my maternal grandmother and if I do that then I wont be able to step out at night which clearly means NO New Year Eve dinner or party or whatever. Oh God! Save me from the trouble. If Big and I dont go to Himachal then we dont have any plan so far for Delhi....
My ideal plan for new year if we stick to Delhi (He hates the plan)
Stay at home, order chinese, drink good wine and watch god father and cozy up <3 <3. How difficult is that? Quite peaceful new year eve. Aaah I wish....

Any Suggestions??
Love
Me :)

Merry Christmas xx

Merry Christmas people. I hope Santa gets you lots of happiness like he got me what I wanted. Yeah Yeah Santa heard me. After spending hours and hours watching Christmas movies and listening to Christmas songs in his honor he finally bestowed upon the happiness that I asked for (I am so cheezy). A clear example of that is the fact that I am writing this blog post from Mr.Big's place he he ....Cant wait for him to move into his new place :D
Apart from that, I am looking forward to spend this new year eve in Dharamshala-Himachal Pradesh. Lets see how that works out.(not that I am a big fan of the hills but Dharamshal can be quite charming in winters)  Keeping my fingers crossed. That's all I need to feel super happy to bring in 2011 which I am convinced will be MY YEAR he he .
More to come.



Love
Me :o)

One Step Ahead.....xx

Yay I am finally happy. My housing form got submitted. Now only waiting for April 24th and keeping my fingers crossed. Also I realized there is only a certain number of tears a girl has for the guy she loves. I have exhausted my limit. I realized he broke up with me for an entirely different reason than what I thought and if that is the reason then I must just forgive and forget. So no more break up rona dhona.....
I am looking forward to spending the New Year at my holiday home in himachal (not a big fan but whatevaaaa) ...I want lots of trekking....Yay I lost 4 kgs in 2 weeks (unhealthy but awesome) and I have this lovely book that a friend has kindly loaned for me to read on the short little trip. La La La

Also a little update on the job front......All Set! ...*wink wink*

Love
Me :)

Daddy's Good girl

I miss being Daddy's good girl. I altered the rules, I was a rebel but he made peace in my happiness and look what happened ...the man I changed all my rules for dumped me in the worst way possible. Who Does that? Who dumps a person at 6 in the morning on some random street with a round of choicest words? Who Does that?  And I am not one of those egoistic bitches who will claim that 'Oh I dumped him' No I did not. He did. (Even if this puts me in guilt inducing shame)
So I think my freedom no more lies in being available in the evening for parties.
Major rules for now:

Self imposed curfew at 7 P.M
No Alcohol EVER. Swear on my sister and cross my heart. NO MORE.

xoxo
Me :*(

P.S.....By no means am I suggesting that he asked me to break those rules. He never asked me to do anything wrong. And even though I shouldn't be saying good things about him but I WILL NOT LIE. I got those rules amended at home because I wanted to do that even if I wanted to do it for him ..that was a personal choice he cannot be blamed for.

Stuff I look forward to in 2011

December is almost coming to an end and this is the perfect time to put together a list of things I look forward to in 2011 or the new year so to say. So here it is 

1. My Apartment. The Most of important of them all. I have been going on and on about getting an apartment and I know that 2011 is going to be a kickass year for that. Hopefully by summer I will have an apartment and I will get to set it up according to my own taste and style. The months for this goal are probably from April till June. A BIG YAY. Fingers crossed xx 
2. I want to change my phone and I am pretty sure it is going to be one of the blackberry models because I cannot live without blackberry. I really want a new phone because I have always gotten Hand-Me Downs Blackberry phones from my brother so this time I am going to get one for myself BRAND NEW. But I don't see this happening till Diwali 2011 and I am going to make sure the current phone of mine lasts a year at least. So technically the month for this goal is October. 
3. I am going to finally change my laptop and get a MacBook Pro. I have always wanted one of those babies and I am going to save for this one and get it in December. That is when Kanchu and Pulkit come back to India for their annual vacation so I am really hoping to send them the money and get this awesome thing. So the month for this goal is December 2011. 
4. Working: I look forward to working again! And making money again. Actually this one should be the most important since if I don't work I wont have money to sponsor any of the things mentioned above. 
5.  Maybe Just Maybe I will be able to earn my first Louise Vuitton Speedy 35. But this is a big Maybe and I might or might not be able to save for this one but then YOU NEVER KNOW. Actually as I think of it I am pretty sure this wont happen because I have so many other expenses like home stuff, macbook pro and phone and some other stuff. 

Ok Thats It ! These are the things I look forward to. 

P.S I know this is highly ambitious of me but then WTH its my life and I can dream and plan. 

Love

Me :)

Isn't it lovely

I saw this at a Home Decor Store in Select City walk and totally loved the idea. (P.S. I mean the Diwan Style Sofa with curtain and not the table decor at the right :-p )  

I am totally crazy about setting up an apartment for myself and I am really hoping I will get to do that in 2011. Which is also why I am so looking forward to 2011. And I am so obsessed with the idea of setting up my own house that I keep collecting decor information and pictures to help me when I actually get to do it hopefully this summer. Although if everything goes as planned and as per my preference I will be getting a one bedroom apartment (With bath, kitchen, closet and balcony he he ) But it could be anything from 1 bedroom to 3 bedrooms depending on the locality my mother thinks is best for me. He He :-) 

Actually, talking about 2011 has given me the idea of putting up a post on the 'Things I look forward to in 2011) Let me do it NOW!

P.S : This post might seem like a rant because I am actually typing it from my phone.

Love

Me :-) 

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Breaking Up is Hard to do.......

DAY 2

Typically you’d think that if you were going to write about your breakup, it’d start with day one.  However, day one of my breakup was spent sobbing in the shower and playing Howie Day's "Collide" over and over in my car and at home so I was a bit incapacitated, needless to say. 

Technically, this is really like day 8 since the previous week was spent fervently denying this breakup was actually happening in the first place. Regardless. Since stalking and being in a relationship by yourself is generally frowned upon and yes, quite pathetic, I guess I have no choice but to try to find a way to move on.

Around 2 days back my relationship to the guy I was convinced was THE ONE, MR.BIG and everything a girl dreams of ended. I would love to say that our time together was pure and blissful heaven on Earth, but that would be a lie.  In reality, it was more a mixture of heaven and hell with hell increasingly butting into heaven’s time as the months progressed. But throughout it all, this man became my advice giver, my confidante,my joke supplier, my biggest critic, and my biggest supporter.He was an ear I could turn to. I learned to love Delhi with him. Through the good and the bad times, he became my best friend. And I miss him like hell.

I know I’m not alone here. We’ve all been in love and lost love and said we were never going to fall in love again then did it anyways.  We play the cycle out over and over everyday. But no matter how many times we do it, breaking up sucks. Plain and simple.

The reason I am writing about this is because I always need to vent. More and More! I am rally hoping I will not turn this blog into a break up blog. This is about me for God Sake. 

As a Side Note: 

I did it. And I’m so not proud. I regret to report that last evening at approximately 10:28 P.M , I sent the cringe-inducing “drunk text” to the ex. Unfortunately for my pride, I was stone cold sober.

Me :(

Adios Facebook!

There is more than one reason why I finally decided to quit facebook. For starts I probably had too many people on it and I did not want to deal with their question regarding my personal life-in short : whether I have broken up with my guy (they don't even know the name of the guy or whether there is any such relationship at all) But sad status messages often act as starting points for conversations with long lost friends or just random people who you add because you were in the same school or college.
Secondly, I did not want to look at my boyfriend's profile on facebook again and again. I am not the kind of person who stalks people on facebook which is why I thought it was disturbing behaviour on my part and decided to do something about it.
Also, I felt that I have had too much of that social networking site. It wasn't offering anything new and somehow the state of ennui prevailed.

So Bye Bye facebook. My journey with you was a good one but its time to let you go.

Love
Me :(

It just ended in a blink

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus and Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
You have a life, you fall in love , you make plans , you have fantasies and none of them involve all of them ending in a blink of an eye. One just doesn't cut somebody out of there lives. A  person doesn’t do that, not without a little hesitation. I’m entitled to a little uncertainty here. Just a moment to understand the magnitude of what it means to cut somebody out of my life. I am entitled to at least one moment of painful doubt and a little understanding.


:*( </3 
Me 

All that a girl asks for is ....

Why have we suddenly become so modern that we have forgotten all about some sweet old values. Men expect their girlfriends to stand beside them through thick and thin but forget all about giving them respect and attention when it comes down to good times. 

I have guy friends who go on and on about how difficult it is to get a nice girl but do they treat their women good when they actually get one. The girl would go to extremes to ensure the comfort and happiness of the guy but he on the other would not even stand up to someone showing disrespect towards his girl. What happened to the old world values of standing up for your woman. Women are expected to be loyal, loving and caring but men are expected to do nothing. They have all the time in the world for a beer and play station but they don't have time to take the girl to help her run some errands never mind that she would bend backwards to accommodate your plans. A girl will probably be able to live without love but not without respect.

All that a girl asks for is ....Respect! 

Dreaming of Bugs

Something rather weird happened (it has happened before but not to this extent) when I slept over at Saumya's place. I had a dream that I brought a plastic spidery bug and it suddenly comes to life and I run here and there (it was big) and the next thing is, I suddenly get up on the bed and sit down and start saying 'shit shit shit'. Saumya was sleeping next to me and she woke up (thankfully she did not freak out herself) and calmed me down at which point i woke up. I was sitting on the bed and was still in my dream. This is weird. The next morning I and Saumya dissected what happened last night to the core. We decided it best to blame the drinks I had at the party for the 'Episode'.
I tried looking up what it means to see insects in your dreams.

To see insects in your dream, signify minor obstacles that you must overcome. There are small problems and annoyances that need to be dealt with. You feel that you are under attack. Or something or someone may be "bugging" or pestering you. Alternatively, insects are symbolic of precision, alertness, and sensitivity. You may need to organize your thoughts and sort out your values. Sometimes they are seen as divine messengers.

This is the one that the most reliable dream dictionary suggested. I dont know how much of it is true but yes there are issues that need to be dealt with because they are becoming obstacles.

Dreaming
me :)

125 Miles of a party, few drinks, a sleep-over and a break-up!

These 125 miles were covered in my lovely little silver Wagon R. A car I have come to love so deeply for it holds secrets, emergency make up kits, clothes and shoes stashed after sleep overs with my girls.....
It all started on Monday morning, I had to go pick up the fourth member of my girlie jing bang. Yes! Neha was coming back from England- for good. I and Shruti picked her up from the airport and we three headed to Select City Walk in Saket to grab lunch and meet Saumya. The Jing Bang was complete. The lunch had everything needed to make it a hit. Monday afternoon was full of humour, below the belt jokes, shrewd sarcasm, heavy duty bitching, some discussion on certain disappointments and passable food. (The food court sucks and our next destination is The Hard Rock Cafe) Later that evening I met Kanchu and Pulkit. YES! They finally made it to India and we met. It was a lovely evening, some lip smacking food and lots of catching up. Oh what catching up it was *wink wink*.
Slept around 3:30 in the morning (crashed at Pulkit's place). Had to wake up at 7 in the morning to drop the two of them at the airport as they were headed towards Kanchu's hometown. Once that was done...I was back at home planning the rest of my day. Did not get to catch up on sleep at all. I had to attend a party that evening- Aman's Birthday Party. I left home to run some errands ot some n my way to Saket where I had to drop off some stuff at a relative's place. From there I headed to Saumya's place , got ready while discussing some important stuff with her. Once I reached the party I knew it was going to be a memorable night! I couldnt explain the nostalgia but it was at Aman's Birthday Party last year that I had met  'AM' (I am going to stick to no names) It had been a memorable year. Last year I met him as Aman's friend this year I was going to that party as his girlfriend. Only to realize that this would be the day we would break up. Yes its official. We are no more together. There are reasons to it that are inexplicable.Its not who left who...its love that left us.
The whole day yesterday was spent crying at the drop of the hat. I cried while watching 'How I met your mother' So now you can imagine. I dont know how to deal with this break up.But this time i am going to try the hardest to move on. This one is legendary.
I just need something to happen, I need a sign that things are going to change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope! And in the abscence of hope, I need to stay in bed and feel like I'm going to die today. At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we are made. So you can waste your lives drawing line. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.

Me :*(

Joey rules over me!!

As the title suggests my little baby...my pet boxer Joey is the king of my house. I was about to leave him alone at home which is something we don't do often. I had to take him for an extra round of walk, give him bribe treats, fill his pot with water, keep his stuff toys on my duvet because that's where he likes to lie down. The boy is pampered like anything. Like normal dogs he doesn't sleep on his own bed rather he sleeps on our beds with our pillows and duvet. Thankfully he always smells good thanks to his dog cologne so we don't have any foul smells in our duvet.
I have left my place and am on my way to get some work done and all I can do is think what he would be doing. I think I should stop because I seem to be obsessed with my dog.
Love
Me:)
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Top 10 Things I do on the internet

1. Social Networking : Facebook-ing to be precise. The very first page I open when i open any browser is http://www.facebook.com/. Apart from Facebooking I am into twitter and blogging. (As you can see)

2. Dream Interpretation: Every day without fail I go to dream interpretation dictionary sites and try to interpret my dreams. :D I believe they have a hidden meaning. (Stop Laughing)

3. Resumes and Cover Letters: These days I have been looking for samples of resumes and cover letter and PR Portfolios of other people in order to make mine.

4. Youtube: I am always looking at funny videos and listening to songs on facebooks (NO I dont look for Karaoke Videos ) http://www.youtube.com/

5.XKCD : A webcomic about Romance, Sarcasm, Math and Language.(http://www.xkcd.com/) I am geekier than you thought. Also sometimes I look at The Oatmeal. (http://theoatmeal.com/). (Another cartoon/comic blog/website)

6. Read the Newspaper: I got to The Times of India Website to get news. I am not really a big news-PAPER person any longer but I think its temperory but nothing beats the thrill of reading news online considering i dont have to handle big pages and can skim through just what I like.

7. Chatting: Catching up with friends on Gtalk and Skype! Needs no explanation. I hate Yahoo and MSN so a big NO.

8. Virtual Window Shopping: How could I miss this one. I go on Macys, Amazon, some brand websites to keep on my window shopping. (ironic ...I have windows installed on my computers..LAME I know)

9.  Reading Blogs: By others. Currently I am addicted to http://chonweddingjournal.blogspot.com/ Its not about the wedding as much as it is about her setting up a new house, the buying and the decor. I love her house.

10. Watching Soaps and Movies: Last but not the least. Infact one of the most important ones. I watch grey's Anatomy, Gossip Girl and How I met you mother amongst others on (http://www.cucirca.com/). As we all know in India we are usually 2 seasons behind than in US or UK so this is a great website to keep up to date with latest episodes. As far as Movies are concerned all I do is search for the movie on http://www.megavideo.com/ YES I HAVE A MEMBERSHIP...YAY...lets me watch high quality videos and that too unlimited.


Online
Me :)

Trying out MoBlogging

Trying out mobile blogging .. So that I can blog faster than ever... Sheesh am totally hooked to blogging. More than ever. This was a test blog. TEST TEST :D
Technically,
Me :-)
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Listen to the rain on the roof

I have been craving sugar for quite some days now. Wondering what's up with my biology? 

Anways, The day started with worrying about hair fall. (Worrying is probably what is leading to it) But I am now planning drastic measures to stop it.Like :

1. Special diet including power foods for stopping hair fall. (Read: Lots of Tofu) 

2. Getting a drastic haircut. (Don't Read: Mohawk - Just shoulder length hair and maybe a little fringe in the front) 

3. Putting in hard work at NOT STRESSING. 

Met my Mumma Hen- Saumya this morning. We had a prior commitment to tend to. (Wow I sound like Lily Bass - Ref: Serena's mother in Gossip Girl) After the work was done we had coffee together and some deadly sinful chocolate dessert. *Guilt Guilt* . 

Now coming on the main part and also the part which leads to the title of the post: Listen to the rain on the roof. I finally put in hours of work on my resume, cover letter and some other stufff required to apply for the position I am secretly wishing for. (Also the reason why I turned  down some other positions in other organizations) I am keeping my fingers crossed that this will work. (Sorry I havent told anyone about it I just dont want to discuss if I dont get it because I will be massively heartbroken :-( ) .....For now I am all positive about it, (NAH.... I have not even applied as yet) Just getting a friend to sort some information for me first. 

But the good part is I am looking forward to something and I love looking forward to things. The professional slump that I am facing since August will finally come to an end and will forever remain the first and last such time in the history of my life. I am ready to roll people! .....A BIG TOUCHWOOD

Professionally.....

Me :) 

I have a Plan and a Plan I have!

Why do all great ideas come to me at MIDNIGHT? ...Answers anyone....
Well My 24th birthday is coming. Well technically its still 2 1/2 months away but what the hell I will still plan it.

So my plan says I rent a car and take my close set of friends to Agra. A 3 hour drive from Delhi and we can be back by evening, (technically night) . The idea is to have lunch by the Taj. The Great Taj Mahal.  I am hoping to be working by then to fund this little escapade. That's my way of bringing my 24th birthday in true style. True Royal Style. The idea is to make this a memorable day for all my close friends. We have travelled around United Kingdom together. Its time we do that in India. This is home after all.

Well I will need to develop this plan over time. Lets see! But if you have any ideas on how I should be celebrating my birthday do leave comments. Much appreciated.

Love (True Shahjahan and Mumtaaj style)
Me :)

Owner of a Lonely Heart

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had.But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruellest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." - Iris


Totally
Me

A sudden realization!

OK this one is going to be a short one!

I just re-read the last post and it makes me realize what utter bullshit of a home-bird I have become. I am almost sickeningly talking like a housewife. I am glad I did not have - Drop the kids to the school- as a thing to do in the list. Phew! Life is going to change and it is going to change pretty soon! As I already said- 2011 is going to be my year!

Almost frantically
Me :)

Quick Update!

Can't wait for 2011 to come. I think it is going to be my year! Yeah I said it : Its going to be my year! I am actually writing a pledge of the sorts for this new year. Damn the resolutions, I am just going to take a pledge to do or not do some things.

Important check-list for this week includes:
1. Meet the Girls!
2. Meet my best friend and her beau.(Also in the best friend circle :-) ) (Also known as Kanchu and Pulkit)
3. Pick up Neha from the airport.
4. Go to the bank for a new account and some housing loan information (Yeah I am taking baby steps towards the Goal No.2 )
5. Take Joey (My lovely cutesy amazing little pompi of a boxer) to the vet.
6. Make my web resume! THIS NEEDS TO BE DONE ASAP.
7. Try avoiding the Unwanted dinner tomorrow night :(
8. Fill out the housing forms!
9.Get fresh passport sized pictures clicked.
10. Time for the haircut I always wanted! ....Haircuts are good for Broken Ups! :-s

Love
Me : )

Top 5 things I learnt from my relationships and then breakups!

1. Love Thyself : DO NOT forget your own happiness. It should come first to you.For if you are happy only then can you make the other person happy. (Believe me it is not necessary and is definitly not your duty to make the other person happy. Each person is responsible for his or her own happiness.)

This lesson is learnt very recently and I wish I would have learnt it earlier so that I would not have made the mistakes I made. Some experiences in life are not so necessary. 


2. Loyalty is Integral: Cheating SUCKS. And for all those who have cheated. Getting Cheated upon sucks even more. You feel let down and definitely embarrassed and we don't like getting embarrassed DO WE?

3. When breaking up : Avoid messy recourse! You dont want to wake up wanting to call the person and feel utter helplessness because of certain actions a night before.

4. Retail Therapy Always Helps. This does not need an explanation!

5. Don't let yourself feel ashamed or humiliated that you could not make the relationship work. You did the best you could . Whatever happened, in the end you are someone who loved. Nobody can ever take that away from you.

Love ,
Me :)

And here's a beginning......

Many abandoned blogs later, I have finally come to a conclusion that writing is very much required if I have to keep my brain from being shred into pieces by my constant worries and my drama queen attitude. Penning down my thoughts is by far the easiest way to sort my life for a start. Well I will begin by introducing myself. As of now. CONFUSED Little BITCH


Why Bitch? 
Well for a start my temper has been soaring and I dont seem to like a lot of things happening around me. Not being able to motivate myself to start working again is one of them. I feel cheated by myself. I feel that I have ceased to be the person that I was and that I loved. What led to it? Umm lots of things. Break ups for a start. One of them was legendarily damaging, Bad career choices, and moving again and again. YES packing my bags and moving overnight. I hate the escapist in me. I am trying to work on the scared-confused-insecure-angry little bitch part. I hope to succeed sometime real soon before that becomes my permanent identity.

Background Check: 
After staying away from home for four years and after pursuing education, parties and travelling with complete dedication I have come back home. Its been 9 months and I already feel like I am nearing my end. Believe me! This is not how I envisioned by early twenties. But then again- what's life all planned.
So now, at 23 I am at home full time. Left my job a couple of months back to go back again to London for a short trip which was cut shorter.(That needs a separate post altogether) For now, I finally have a plan in mind. I have made up my mind that I will start afresh in life. Both personally and professionally.
The plan says :

1. Get a Job
2. Get a House 
3. Get a Life. :-) 

Sounds simple at least as a list. But lets see how I go about doing it.
I hope I stick around on this blog for a long enough time to at least accomplish this list.

Love
Me :-)