Old Drafts.....I should have published.

I loved him for so long and he has punished me for it. He ended up treating me like someone he owned instead of someone he earned. And it destroyed me.

Happiness is not the most important thing. People don't like sonnets about being compatible or novels about shared life goals and stimulating conversations. Great loves are crazy ones. Great Love, for us.....it's complicated, intense, all consuming, no matter what we do, how much we fight it always pulls us in. What's mere happiness in the face of all that.

Dear A,

When I asked you forever ago, What are we A.... last winter you said we couldn't be together...and I believed you. But every time I tried to move on, you are right there. Maybe you just want me to be, just as unhappy as you are. And if you want me to be happy, then look down deep into the soul, I know you have. And tell me if what you feel for me is real or if it just a game. If it is real, we'll figure it out. All of it. But if it is not then please just let me go.

Me

They say parting is such sweet sorrow. But wouldn't it be nice if just for once ...it didn't have to be.

Love
Me :) 

Big just Died for me!

End of the story.
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Owner of a Lonely Heart

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had.But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruellest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." - Iris


Totally
Me

Top 5 things I learnt from my relationships and then breakups!

1. Love Thyself : DO NOT forget your own happiness. It should come first to you.For if you are happy only then can you make the other person happy. (Believe me it is not necessary and is definitly not your duty to make the other person happy. Each person is responsible for his or her own happiness.)

This lesson is learnt very recently and I wish I would have learnt it earlier so that I would not have made the mistakes I made. Some experiences in life are not so necessary. 


2. Loyalty is Integral: Cheating SUCKS. And for all those who have cheated. Getting Cheated upon sucks even more. You feel let down and definitely embarrassed and we don't like getting embarrassed DO WE?

3. When breaking up : Avoid messy recourse! You dont want to wake up wanting to call the person and feel utter helplessness because of certain actions a night before.

4. Retail Therapy Always Helps. This does not need an explanation!

5. Don't let yourself feel ashamed or humiliated that you could not make the relationship work. You did the best you could . Whatever happened, in the end you are someone who loved. Nobody can ever take that away from you.

Love ,
Me :)